even until now, when it seems less like a dream, i still find it hard to forget what happened just now. sometimes things turn out the way i least expect it to. i just am so afraid, that it won't be the same anymore between us, that i'll never be able to see you anymore, that i can't see that smile anymore. why does this have to hurt so bad? god, please give me strength to live through this 39 weeks, give me strength to swallow the turth, give me strength to move on. i know you have something planned for me and please take care of him.

i might not be able to see you anymore, but when i wanna find you, i'll just have to close my eyes. you're in me. <3