I couldn't stop crying ever since i got home. today is my last week here and i was so upset especially when i didn't get to bade proper farewell to someone specific. i never expect things to end this way, at least i was hoping for a proper goodbye, but no, you just disappeared without even informing me and you know how that felt? it sucks so bad, but thank god my lovely friends accompanied me through the day so i felt entertained although they keep talking about my 'pregnancy' and my 'husband' -.-

It finally comes right, the day when i have to leave everything behind, when i have to completely let go of someone i'll never be able to love wholly. i'm going to miss how you watch me and how you smile and hit my arms everytime i do something stupid, and when you don't mind whenever i act completely stupid you'll just run through my hair, when you stick out your tongue because i couldn't follow you monkey steps and when i asked you song titles because i loved the lyrics, or when you danced and shake your head making yourself look like electrocuted. to me, you shine like a diamond, and although i can't personally tell you to take care, i hope you get my note. I'll only come back my december and i hope 39 weeks isn't that long. i guess its back to waiting.

I have been here for so long i'm used to my routine, feel attached to certain places and sense connection with some people i used to not know, and how hard it is to leave all that behind. even now i miss you already. its like when i came out and you were nowhere to be found, no matter how long i waited you didn't come back, it squeezes my heart in terrible pain. i don't want to lose you. i love you, and it never changed.

god, all i need is strength to carry on.\


I tried to hide from you
but i failed
i tried to lie to you
but how i failed
and even in my darkest time
you gave me light
i never knew this kinda love could feel so right
when i'm in your arms
i find myself believe it
we could be anywhere
so i can keep on dreaming

(Chorus)
whenever your close to me, you`re like the sun
you feel like the sun
and everyday you telling me
i am the one
i am the one who makes you shine

and i know
whenever you want me to, i'll go
and even when your not with me
i feel you there
i only have to look and see
and i'll know where
when i'm holding you
the world can stop it's turning
you`re always gonna pull me through
and i won't be returning

(Chorus)
whenever your close to me, your like the sun
you feel like the sun
and everyday you`re telling me
i am the one
i am the one who makes you shine

you`re like the sun
you keep me warm
you`re telling me

when i'm in your arms
we can be anywhere (2x)

(Chorus)
whenever your close to me, you`re like the sun
you feel like the sun
and everyday you`re telling me
i am the one
i am the one who makes you shine (2x)