Well, I think blogging has been my way of life therefore I'm back here blogging, so deny the previous post haha

I've been doing a lot of reflection lately and even though this is so hard to sink in, I guess one day my heart will understand and learn to let go. Nothing majorly serious happened though, just that, as you may have guessed, I'm a person who deal tremendously bad with changes. I hate how this life keeps changing even before I am able to catch up. Sometimes I get so tired of figuring out what life actually is, I wanted to give up. But giving up is easy, and I want to try to hold on even when things fell apart and my wall of hope got destroyed, because that's when I know I'm strong.

Its just that, I get so used to being around someone, thinking that things are perfect and he was all I want. I'm wrong. First of all, I'm someone with unstable emotion. Like when my mom decided to fire the driver, I asked myself, how is he gonna feed his kids and wife jobless? Ah life, I never seem to be able to figure you out.

Maybe in the first place I shouldn't be too serious about everything. But who can control feelings and out of all, love?

Funny, because people tell me, 'candies you shouldn't think about it anymore and just move on' that's probably the best advice I've heard and that's exactly what I need to do and I thank those who told me that. But then how do you alter feelings in a blink? I could almost feel my heart stop beating and my legs refused to walk away everytime I watch you watching me.

I know its weird because this is really personal and I shouldn't spill it here, but I feel that blogging this out makes me think of what actually I'm feeling and though things are bad, at least nothing worse happened, right?

Strength, stand by me.