Hi i'm acting like i don't care about monday but deep inside i care so much about that its tearing me apart inside. Although i don't need the results anymore but i don't know i guess that result will impact me a lifetime. I'm really truly worried that i can't express it in anyway, not the nightmares that i'm having, not the insomnia since days ago. People that i shared about this about only could tell me to take a deep breath and just pray but i feel so helpless i don't know what to do anymore. It matters a lot because that result will reflect on my studies those four years and i think i'm hyperventilating.

Btw on a lighter note, I'm going to Syd for foundation in unsw and i've googled a lil about sydney and i just can hope that town gives me what singapore gave me. And i'm leaving by march. and i'll miss waking up early to see you although i don't exactly do anymore. well, i really think he's so nice, so patient on me. not like i want to talk about it here, but its just that with all this choosing school and result things, i just complained and complained and he's just there listening to me. and i think if i were him i would have slapped myself and just relax man but no he didn't do that so I really wonder if he could stay this way forever. but then i think we're too young to be overly serious about this so let's just take it easy and :)

anyway, stef, i'm not pregnant. hahaha